Morning rain

And it's getting to that time of year were you get up in the dark, set off to work in the dark were everything seems wet as if it was raining, even if it wasn't. Surprisingly, when coming back from work it's exactly the same. The sun comes out less often, it gets shy around this time and around December goes to the other side of the world, leaving us with clouds and grey weather. Oh, it's getting to that time of the year were you become quite nostalgic about life, wondering about your future and what to do with it. Focusing on career, you almost forget about how exciting it is to have fun, go out and get caught in the rain, come back home, have a warm bath and a glass of wine. The winter as it's joys really... it's the cold that don't make it easy to see that. It's the morning rain...

Bus alive

As an unexperienced driver, I find myself using the public transports a lot of times. Not that I mind, because to be honest I do enjoy it, it makes me feel closer to people and I get the chance to learn more from them. I do love to watch people, their attitudes, their style, clothes, gestures, posture, everything is fascinating to me. I don't stare, I just stay there and observe, and I can do this for hours. That's why I don't mind to ride a bus or catch a train. I love it.

Today I had to get two bus to my final destination and oh boy, they we're different. The first I caught, the journey was longer and I found it very quite, not many conversations around, sudden movements, no funny smell's or music. Then I got the city bus, in this one, the bus seemed alive. Youngster's coming in and out, music playing, bags of Mcdonalds and that characteristic smell of chips and pickles in the air. There were different conversations in, side by side or shouting to longer seats. Different atmosphere, distinguished livings.

I loved it.. I spent my entire time listening to some music and watching, mainly people but I also look at what was going on outside the window.

Connecting with other human beings it's wonderfull, even if you don't know them. A simple cross of looks get someone closer. Today I didn't cross my look with anyone but I sow some intereaction between strangers, so nice. It made me realise that for lonely people, maybe that one second conection can make some one happy for that day, a simple look, a simple smile...

Limits of honesty

I have always been told that I'm to honest. I never understand why people could say "you're to honest"! How can a person be to honest? I mean, it should be a good thing rather then a problem. But nowdays it seems that we have to hide things or lie to have success in life, at work and with friends. It's unbelievable that we can't be ourselves. I'm saying this but i'm still honest and well.. me. I just think it's terrible to say such thing as "you can't be so honest". Ofcourse I had trouble in life with people by being sincere, but from what I can see, the problem wasn't mine exaclty, but their's. Lately i've been noticing that when there's an issue between people, it's often because no one want's to take responsability for their action or attitude, or just don't like to be told. Well, truth hurts but it's always the best way to deal with things.

I can't stop thinking about this... Am I to innocent? Maybe the way i see things it's not right and I can't understand the rules to life. And saying this, is there a right way to live? A better way? A way that you can be safe from pain, from suffer, from shame. I love life and I face all barriers as a tool for my journey. We can always learn something from the moments we live, either positive or negative, one thing is for sure, there's knowledge in everything, everywere.

I guess there's no limits for honesty, maybe the right thing to do is to be honest with what we believe and with whom we want.

Thoughts left in bed..

Have you ever had the feeling that you've lost some thoughts? It happens to me all the time. Not that I consider my self as a super brain, but I have quite a good memory. I don't need a diary to organize my tasks and appointments, I can remember what I did in daily basis and for dates I can't complain.

One thing that I keep loosing is toughts. Last time it happened was last sunday. I woke up and realize that my last body combat class had left me with some muscle pain. I stood there, thinking about stuff as most of my first minutes of the day, and I remeber clearly that I was building this idea to post in here later. Was when I got up and did my morning coffee that I seemed to lost track of the idea. I came into the computer, connected and opened the blog site and thats't it, my mind went blank. I spent all day trying to remember my thought but I just couldn't. I know that I was thinking of something and it was very interesting and nothing else. It's all I got from my sunday morning idea.

Since then, i've been thinking about the production of thoughts and how the mind has the power to save all the information that we build in. It's amazing really. Maybe I shouldn't be surprised if I have lost one in a million.

One thing I love about this country..

And there I was, waiting to cross in the lights on my way back from the supermarket, my daily journey, when I sow something that capture all my attention. Actually, it wasn't the first time that something like this happened and this is what I love about people, their capacity to help and be available to others. Anyhow..

This old lady was coming from a street, walking in the road with her dog when the little one decided do make a run and meet some of his equals, in the other side of the road. I could only hear screeaming and shouting and car breaks. What happened was, the owners of the other dogs stopped in front of the cars so they couldn't hit the poor dog. One other car pool over and helped the old lady. After a little while they where together again and everything went back to normal. But I couldn't stop thinking about the way the two ladies went to the road, stopped in front of the cars risking their lifes, and the other car stopping whithout warning and signal. I was watching this from a distance but I was so amazed, and happy.

It came to my mind that this is one thing I love about this country, this respect and love for animals. I don't see abandoned animals in the street, don't see people harming their animals and for what I know, even in parks animals are treated with love and devotion.

Today I feel very happy to be where I am.

Because today is the day..

I've always thought about building a blog of my own. Actually, I did start one in portuguese, but I didn't feel any commitment to it. The thing is I really love writting and I miss it.. Back in my hometown I used to write a lot, letters it's one of my favourites.

I've been thinking, and I would like to improve my english, specialy my written because if I know how to spell I usually know how to say. And that's when it came to my mind, I could finally build my blog and with a little help I can do both, write and improve.

I love challenges.. And so here I go in this adventure oh touhgts. And why thoughs? I think as everybody else, my mind doesn't stop. I find my self thinking about the most peculiar things such as, "how can a person be so slave of mechanic actions?"; be amazed with the facts that i've got ducks at my gym's door every now and again. Things, little things, big things, simple, bizarre...

basically...

every aspect of life is a good reason to spin the whell of thoughts.